I've been taking a break from blogging lately. Every time I sit down to start a post, it's like my mind draws a blank. I just haven't been able to go there after the twins birthday on February 19th. The entire month of February was hard for me this year. I went into a depression … Continue reading Silence
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4 Years Ago
4 years ago was one of the greatest days of my entire life. It was the day I got to meet my beautiful twins after a very scary pregnancy. My due date was April 10th, but my sweet babies arrived early on February 19th via an emergency c-section due to a severe case of preeclampsia. I will … Continue reading 4 Years Ago
Armor
I've been in survival mode for so many years that it's hard to remember a time when I wasn't. I have survived unthinkable loss and the crazy ups and downs of this life by putting on an armor of sorts. This armor has protected me from every really having to think about how painful the … Continue reading Armor
Surreal
I will never forget the surreal feeling the night Olivia died. It was like I was watching everything take place as I floated above my body. It had to be some other family going through this. It couldn't possibly be real. I've had that same surreal feeling many times over the last 4 years. It … Continue reading Surreal
Three
I have three kids. But only two of them are here with me. Nearly two and a half years ago my precious daughter went to Heaven at just 20 months old after a long battle with brain cancer. Her loss has left behind a never-ending trail of grief and difficult questions. We are often asked … Continue reading Three
She’s Missing
It's here. February. The month of my twins birth. I always expect their birthday to be a difficult day, but this year my grief has taken hold even earlier than I expected. And it seems to be that way for my little boy, Wyatt, too. We try to talk about Olivia daily. We look at … Continue reading She’s Missing
Why You Should Give 4
Our daughter only got one birthday on earth. Her first. We celebrated with a big party with family and friends at the local train depot. It was a celebration of not only Olivia and her twin brother Wyatt's first birthday, but also of Olivia's remission from brain cancer. Oh little did we know on that … Continue reading Why You Should Give 4
Running Out Of Time
I will never forget the day we found out Olivia was terminal. We knew she wasn't doing well but it was still a huge shock. When we stepped out of the hospital that day my husband and I resolved to make the most of the time we had left with our princess. From that moment … Continue reading Running Out Of Time
Joy
Have you ever just stopped at a moment in your life and felt such an indescribable feeling of joy? This was one of those moments for me. Playing at the park on our first real family vacation with our twins. Olivia was thought to be cancer free and healthy. We pushed the kids on the … Continue reading Joy
How to Love a Grieving Parent
Any parent who has lost a child spends the rest of their life in mourning. They are forever broken. Sad. No longer whole. If you have faith in God you can find some comfort in the fact that your little angel is in the arms of Jesus and they are spared the hurts of this … Continue reading How to Love a Grieving Parent
Beauty From The Ashes 