I saw a quote online today posted by one of my favorite Christian artists. It said, “God often uses our deepest pain as the launching pad of our greatest calling.” This statement couldn’t ring more true for my life.
Becoming Olivia’s mom was one of the most amazing experiences I’ve ever had. Words can’t really express how much I loved her from the moment I saw her. Parenting Olivia was far from easy. She had so many medical issues from the moment she was born prematurely. She required supplemental oxygen several times during her life. She was diagnosed with brain cancer and epilepsy just 4 short months into her life. She required countless medications during the day and a feeding tube to survive. I had to work hard with her to develop each and every skill that came naturally to her twin brother, Wyatt. But I can honestly say that I would do it all again in a heartbeat. I would’ve done it forever if it meant I got to keep her.
Losing her was the worst experience of my life. I will never forget the moment I had to pass her lifeless body over to the coroner and watch him take her out of our home for the last time. In that moment I had no idea how I would ever go on. But that horrible moment was also the launching pad of the greatest calling for my life – Olivia’s foundation.
I knew long before Olivia lost her battle to cancer that I had to do something. I wanted her name to be remembered. I wanted to make a difference and find a cure. Losing her only intensified my desire to make that dream come true. And now I put every ounce of the energy I would’ve used to parent my baby girl into her foundation.
I wish every day that life could be different. I wish that cancer had never entered our lives and most of all I wish I had her here and healthy. But since that wish can’t be granted I will fight with all that I have for other children in her name. I love you my beautiful girl. Forever and for always.
The Olivia Caldwell Foundation is a 501c3 nonprofit that raises money for pediatric cancer research in memory of Olivia Caldwell who passed away from brain cancer at 20 months old in October 2013. You can learn more and donate by visiting www.oliviacaldwellfoundation.org.