This week has been rough. My head has been spinning around the 5th anniversary of Olivia's passing. Exactly 5 years ago yesterday, on October 22, 2013, I held my baby girl in my arms when she took her very last breath at 20 months and 3 days old. All day long my head was filled... Continue Reading →
We Could Save Her Today
Yesterday marked 5 years since the day I learned my baby girl was going to die from brain cancer. Normally I spend that day holed up in my house, but this year I spent my day roaming the very halls where I received that news on October 17, 2013. Ever since we started the Olivia... Continue Reading →
She Was
For more years then I care to count I lived in an alternate reality. It was built around a need to display a false sense of perfection and happiness. I was so worried about protecting the feelings and emotions of everyone else around me and our public image that I refused to let myself feel... Continue Reading →
A Brand New Beginning
Just one month ago I said "I Do" for the second time. And with that I entered a brand new chapter of life with my little boys in tow. I am often struck by the magnitude of the changes I have gone through these past several years. I went from being a young wife and... Continue Reading →
The Momma, The Lion
Something strange happens when you become a momma. Your life as you knew it melts away. It is no longer about you. Your needs, wants, dreams, everything slips into the background. Suddenly your life is 100% about this beautiful little person. That is only magnified when you have a sick child. I became a first... Continue Reading →
Butterflies & Beauty
Five years ago I visited the Butterfly Pavilion in Denver, Colorado with my (now) ex-husband, my Dad, brother, and our twins, Wyatt & Olivia. This family excursion took place during one of our trips to Denver so Olivia could continue treatment for her second bout with brain cancer. I didn't know it then but that... Continue Reading →
The Scars You Can’t See
When Olivia was first diagnosed with brain cancer in July 2012 I knew my life was going to change forever. But what I didn't know was the extent of what that would look like. Or the magnitude of the heartbreak that was coming my way. Not only was our little girl fighting for her life,... Continue Reading →
I Said Yes
A little over a week ago the man I love got down on one knee and asked me to marry him over champagne and candlelight. Without hesitation I said yes. I knew he would be my forever from the moment we first met over coffee 9 months ago. After my divorce I was so unsure... Continue Reading →
The Rainbow
Before I even knew Olivia was going to die I had a deep desire for another baby. My pregnancy with the twins and their first months of life had been really tough. I longed for another opportunity to carry a baby, hoping with all I had for a better experience. When Livy died from brain... Continue Reading →
