Time. There never seems to be quite enough of it. Whether you wish you had a little more time with your kids on the weekend, a few more days to spend on vacation, or even a few more hours before you have to make that big presentation at work; time always seems to be lacking. … Continue reading Time
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6 Years Later
This morning as I was eating breakfast with my little boys, I made the mistake of getting on Facebook. The first image to catch my eye was a memory from 6 years ago. It was a reminder that on this day 6 years ago we were celebrating Olivia's very last chemo treatment after she beat … Continue reading 6 Years Later
The Morning After
This week has been rough. My head has been spinning around the 5th anniversary of Olivia's passing. Exactly 5 years ago yesterday, on October 22, 2013, I held my baby girl in my arms when she took her very last breath at 20 months and 3 days old. All day long my head was filled … Continue reading The Morning After
We Could Save Her Today
Yesterday marked 5 years since the day I learned my baby girl was going to die from brain cancer. Normally I spend that day holed up in my house, but this year I spent my day roaming the very halls where I received that news on October 17, 2013. Ever since we started the Olivia … Continue reading We Could Save Her Today
She Was
For more years then I care to count I lived in an alternate reality. It was built around a need to display a false sense of perfection and happiness. I was so worried about protecting the feelings and emotions of everyone else around me and our public image that I refused to let myself feel … Continue reading She Was
A Brand New Beginning
Just one month ago I said "I Do" for the second time. And with that I entered a brand new chapter of life with my little boys in tow. I am often struck by the magnitude of the changes I have gone through these past several years. I went from being a young wife and … Continue reading A Brand New Beginning
The Momma, The Lion
Something strange happens when you become a momma. Your life as you knew it melts away. It is no longer about you. Your needs, wants, dreams, everything slips into the background. Suddenly your life is 100% about this beautiful little person. That is only magnified when you have a sick child. I became a first … Continue reading The Momma, The Lion
Butterflies & Beauty
Five years ago I visited the Butterfly Pavilion in Denver, Colorado with my (now) ex-husband, my Dad, brother, and our twins, Wyatt & Olivia. This family excursion took place during one of our trips to Denver so Olivia could continue treatment for her second bout with brain cancer. I didn't know it then but that … Continue reading Butterflies & Beauty
The Scars You Can’t See
When Olivia was first diagnosed with brain cancer in July 2012 I knew my life was going to change forever. But what I didn't know was the extent of what that would look like. Or the magnitude of the heartbreak that was coming my way. Not only was our little girl fighting for her life, … Continue reading The Scars You Can’t See
I Said Yes
A little over a week ago the man I love got down on one knee and asked me to marry him over champagne and candlelight. Without hesitation I said yes. I knew he would be my forever from the moment we first met over coffee 9 months ago. After my divorce I was so unsure … Continue reading I Said Yes
Beauty From The Ashes 