This morning was one of those days as a parent that I wanted to bang my head against the wall. Wyatt had been throwing temper tantrums nonstop. Landon was only taking cat naps and screaming at the top of his lungs. I put them back in the car after a disastrous trip to the store and found myself driving to Olivia’s graveside.

I was missing my daughter.

I pulled through the front gate of the cemetery and Wyatt said from the back seat, “Mommy you know sissy loves you.”

I started to sob.

It’s days like today that my heart just hurts. I miss her with every ounce of my being and long to be able to hear her say those three beautiful words.

It’s amazing to me that Wyatt can sense my sadness and knows just what to say. Whether he just thought I needed to hear it or she told him to tell me in some way, I will never know.

Olivia spent each day of her life letting me know in her own special way how much she adored her mommy. She was constantly in my lap with her arms around my neck and her head pressed against my chest. She gave me big, slobbery baby kisses. She ran her fingers through my hair. And even in those last days of her life she still found a way to tell me. In fact, the very last smile we were ever graced with came when she heard my voice one morning.

Olivia was a beautiful soul who loved deeply. She loved her mommy. Her daddy. Her twin brother. Her grandparents and uncles. And she loved everyone in a way that was special just to them.

Now I have no doubt that her love for us continues from Heaven, just as our love for her will never cease.

Olivia Caldwell Foundation is a 501c3 nonprofit that raises money for childhood cancer research and programs. You can learn more and donate by visiting the Olivia Caldwell Foundation Website.