Sometimes the Timehops from Facebook are enough to make me want to break down. This past week that was definitely true. For three or four days I woke up each morning to a reminder that 3 years ago on June 6, 2013 we found out that Olivia's cancer had returned. For those agonizing days I … Continue reading Thank You
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The Grieving Mother
I've been thinking a lot about grief the last few days. Mother's Day always brings up a lot of emotions for me. It's truly bittersweet. It's a day that's equally filled with joy and sadness, because while I am still a mother to two wonderful little boys, I am also still the grieving mother of a … Continue reading The Grieving Mother
Never The Same
I'm not the same person I used to be. Before her. Before cancer. I've always been a bit of a worrier. I'm cautious by nature and I can easily fear the worst. But now I am living through the reality of one of my worst fears coming true. I lost a child. I lost … Continue reading Never The Same
Tree For Sissy
It's hard to believe but this is already the 3rd Christmas we will celebrate without Olivia. Her absence is noticed this year just as much as it was the first. We started the tradition of decorating our tree for her that first horrible Christmas in 2013 when her loss was just barely 2 months old. … Continue reading Tree For Sissy
Two Years Later
Two years ago our world fell apart. Our 20 month old daughter went to Heaven after a long battle with cancer. And the same week, her twin brother was diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes. I've never felt more desperation then I did during those moments. It was a time when I had no choice but … Continue reading Two Years Later
“When is Sissy Coming Back from Heaven?”
Just about a week ago we hit 23 months since Olivia passed away. And now on October 22, 2015 we will hit a new milestone... 2 years since our little girl left us and made her journey to heaven. Lately my son, Wyatt (her twin brother) seems to be missing her more than ever. I … Continue reading “When is Sissy Coming Back from Heaven?”
Worn
Some days I just feel broken. Worn out. Like everything in its entirety is so much that I am surprised I can even stand. My uncle passed away a few weeks ago. It was unexpected and it broke not only my heart, but the hearts of his wife, my dad and his mother - my … Continue reading Worn
For The Love of Landon
When you have another baby after the loss of a child they are called a rainbow baby. Or a baby that comes after one of the greatest storms in life you can experience. Landon is our rainbow baby. There is something incredibly bittersweet about having a new baby after the loss of a child. You … Continue reading For The Love of Landon
And the clock keeps ticking…
Time seemed to stand still when I was pregnant with Wyatt and Olivia. It felt like I was going to be pregnant forever and that day would never come when I would hold them in my arms and finally become a mother to two living, breathing, beautiful, amazing human beings. And now today I take … Continue reading And the clock keeps ticking…
An Angel in Disguise – A Tribute to Oncology Nurses
In honor of nurses week I would like to take a moment to pause and honor the unsung heroes that are a huge part of any child's battle with cancer. Pediatric oncology nurses. These amazing people are the ones who are with you the most. They hold your hand when you hear those awful words, "your child … Continue reading An Angel in Disguise – A Tribute to Oncology Nurses
Beauty From The Ashes 