I've made it through another Mother's Day. That might seem like a weird thing to say, but the truth is, Mother's Day has been pretty awful for me since I lost Olivia. Don't get me wrong, it's not that I don't love her brothers, but it's hard to be happy on this day when one … Continue reading Being Her Mommy
Olivia Caldwell Foundation
Greatest Calling
I saw a quote online today posted by one of my favorite Christian artists. It said, "God often uses our deepest pain as the launching pad of our greatest calling." This statement couldn't ring more true for my life. Becoming Olivia's mom was one of the most amazing experiences I've ever had. Words can't really … Continue reading Greatest Calling
On This Day
Facebook can be a tricky business for grieving parents. It provides a pretty amazing tool to connect with others who have walked a similar path and an outlet to share my little girl's story. But on the other hand there are some mornings I wake up and see my "On This Day" reminder and I … Continue reading On This Day
Our Hero – Olivia
September is Childhood Cancer Awareness Month. And while it might be tempting to simply scroll past the gold ribbons and the sad stories of these kids you see on your Facebook page, I ask you not to give into that temptation. Childhood Cancer Awareness matters deeply to me, and it should matter to you too. You … Continue reading Our Hero – Olivia
Thank You
Sometimes the Timehops from Facebook are enough to make me want to break down. This past week that was definitely true. For three or four days I woke up each morning to a reminder that 3 years ago on June 6, 2013 we found out that Olivia's cancer had returned. For those agonizing days I … Continue reading Thank You
Armor
I've been in survival mode for so many years that it's hard to remember a time when I wasn't. I have survived unthinkable loss and the crazy ups and downs of this life by putting on an armor of sorts. This armor has protected me from every really having to think about how painful the … Continue reading Armor
She’s Missing
It's here. February. The month of my twins birth. I always expect their birthday to be a difficult day, but this year my grief has taken hold even earlier than I expected. And it seems to be that way for my little boy, Wyatt, too. We try to talk about Olivia daily. We look at … Continue reading She’s Missing
Fear
Nearly two and a half years ago my worst fear came true. My daughter died in my arms after a long battle with cancer. The fear of losing a child was something that rattled me even before I first became pregnant. That fear became magnified after I lost our first baby to an ectopic pregnancy … Continue reading Fear
I Can’t Think Of You
The day I found out I was having a boy and a girl (twins) was truly the best day of my life. I had always hoped to have a little girl. A precious little lady that I could love and cherish and help mold into a wonderful woman some day. Olivia was everything I had hoped … Continue reading I Can’t Think Of You
Was She Real?
Our Olivia has been in Heaven now for 2 years and 2 months. That's an entire 6 months longer than she was alive. I find myself questioning sometimes whether or not she was even real or just a figment of my imagination. Our life today is vastly different from the life we shared with our … Continue reading Was She Real?
Beauty From The Ashes 