Have you ever just stopped at a moment in your life and felt such an indescribable feeling of joy? This was one of those moments for me. Playing at the park on our first real family vacation with our twins. Olivia was thought to be cancer free and healthy. We pushed the kids on the … Continue reading Joy
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How to Love a Grieving Parent
Any parent who has lost a child spends the rest of their life in mourning. They are forever broken. Sad. No longer whole. If you have faith in God you can find some comfort in the fact that your little angel is in the arms of Jesus and they are spared the hurts of this … Continue reading How to Love a Grieving Parent
Fear
Nearly two and a half years ago my worst fear came true. My daughter died in my arms after a long battle with cancer. The fear of losing a child was something that rattled me even before I first became pregnant. That fear became magnified after I lost our first baby to an ectopic pregnancy … Continue reading Fear
I Can’t Think Of You
The day I found out I was having a boy and a girl (twins) was truly the best day of my life. I had always hoped to have a little girl. A precious little lady that I could love and cherish and help mold into a wonderful woman some day. Olivia was everything I had hoped … Continue reading I Can’t Think Of You
Was She Real?
Our Olivia has been in Heaven now for 2 years and 2 months. That's an entire 6 months longer than she was alive. I find myself questioning sometimes whether or not she was even real or just a figment of my imagination. Our life today is vastly different from the life we shared with our … Continue reading Was She Real?
Hope
This past weekend our pastor gave a beautiful sermon about hope in spite of the inevitable tragedies and heartache in this world. It really touched my heart and put into words what I've never been able to explain. We've been told that our family is an "inspiration." That we've thrived in spite of the tremendous … Continue reading Hope
Cuddles In The Snow
This week Casper was hit by another big snowstorm. The schools were closed and the city stopped while the snow fell heavy all around us. A little more than two years ago a similar snowstorm hit us early in October. We weren't living in Casper yet, but were just up for a visit with my … Continue reading Cuddles In The Snow
A New Neighbor
A few weeks ago I had the sudden urge to go and see my daughter. She is buried right here in Casper but I don't go as often as I would like. Her graveside gives me a place to visit, but I know that she doesn't dwell there. When I pulled up that Saturday afternoon … Continue reading A New Neighbor
A Little Black Shadow
This week brought on another big loss for our family... the death of our beloved dog, Daisy. Her loss has caused a much deeper sadness then I ever anticipated experiencing, despite the fact that she was of course a dear member of our family. Brett and I have had Daisy through everything. She was with … Continue reading A Little Black Shadow
Tree For Sissy
It's hard to believe but this is already the 3rd Christmas we will celebrate without Olivia. Her absence is noticed this year just as much as it was the first. We started the tradition of decorating our tree for her that first horrible Christmas in 2013 when her loss was just barely 2 months old. … Continue reading Tree For Sissy
Beauty From The Ashes 