A New Kind Of Perfect

For so many years I lived a kind of double life. On the outside it looked like I had it all together. Yes, I had lost my only daughter to cancer. But I was "thriving." I ran a successful nonprofit that grew more each day. I had the perfect marriage. I simply wasn't going to... Continue Reading →

A Punch In The Gut

Today started like any other. I woke up to the embrace of my sweet 3 year old who likes to start the morning by petting my hair. We woke up, I had coffee, fed my boys breakfast and hit the day with a running start. I was blissfully unaware that today was any different from... Continue Reading →

Grief Through The Eyes Of My Child

When I found out I was pregnant with twins I spent hours daydreaming about the life they would share together. I imagined a special bond filled with a secret language, lots of giggles, and endless hours of play. I saw visions of my sweet twins being close even in adulthood as they shared a lifetime... Continue Reading →

Glitter, Gold & Butterflies

I am sitting in my office today completely overcome with gratitude. Each minute more donations are pouring in for our 1st Annual Butterfly Ball. People who never met my precious girl are spending money on tickets to attend the Ball in honor of what would have been her 6th birthday on February 19th. And many... Continue Reading →

New Year & New Beginnings

Another new year has begun and I can't help but be struck by how different the beginning of this new year is compared to the last. On January 4, 2017 I made the most difficult decision of my life when I chose to officially end my nearly 8 year long marriage to my high school... Continue Reading →

A New Season

Lately I've been feeling stuck in a kind of twilight zone. I've been living with part of my heart in the past while the rest of me has moved on towards the future. I've been walking on eggshells trying desperately to avoid upsetting the balance between my old life and the new as I take... Continue Reading →

Piece By Piece

The day I lost my only daughter, Olivia, to brain cancer my heart shattered. Something deep inside of me broke. And ever since that awful moment on October 22, 2013 I have been living as an incomplete person. She was part of me and living without her now just doesn't feel right. For 4 years... Continue Reading →

Embracing The New

2017 is quickly coming to an end and it has me reflecting on how much life has changed this year. This has been a year of transitions and new beginnings. Some of those transitions have been horribly painful while others have been truly great. 2017 was the year my marriage officially ended after separating near... Continue Reading →

Beauty In The Mud

It's been 4 years baby girl. Four years since I got to hold you or feel your sweet little lips on my cheek. Four years since I heard your laugh or have been able to run my fingers through your beautiful brown hair. And I miss it all. I miss you. My anxiety has been... Continue Reading →

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