A New Season

Lately I've been feeling stuck in a kind of twilight zone. I've been living with part of my heart in the past while the rest of me has moved on towards the future. I've been walking on eggshells trying desperately to avoid upsetting the balance between my old life and the new as I take... Continue Reading →

Piece By Piece

The day I lost my only daughter, Olivia, to brain cancer my heart shattered. Something deep inside of me broke. And ever since that awful moment on October 22, 2013 I have been living as an incomplete person. She was part of me and living without her now just doesn't feel right. For 4 years... Continue Reading →

Embracing The New

2017 is quickly coming to an end and it has me reflecting on how much life has changed this year. This has been a year of transitions and new beginnings. Some of those transitions have been horribly painful while others have been truly great. 2017 was the year my marriage officially ended after separating near... Continue Reading →

Beauty In The Mud

It's been 4 years baby girl. Four years since I got to hold you or feel your sweet little lips on my cheek. Four years since I heard your laugh or have been able to run my fingers through your beautiful brown hair. And I miss it all. I miss you. My anxiety has been... Continue Reading →

She Saw Jesus

People ask me often how I can cling to my faith the way I do after losing my only daughter to brain cancer before she even made it to her 2nd birthday. And the answer to that question always takes me back to the night Olivia died. Watching a loved one, especially your child, die... Continue Reading →

How Could I Say Goodbye?

Today I woke up with a sick feeling in my stomach. It has been this way each morning for at least a week. I have known what's coming and I am anything but prepared. This week is packed full off anniversaries. Each one even worse than the one before it. And my heart just isn't... Continue Reading →

Last Snow

The first snow storm of the season blanketed Casper earlier this week. As I watched the snow fall, silently covering the city in white, my mind took me back in time to the first Casper snow four years ago. Ironically, just as I am this week, I was fighting my first cold of the season... Continue Reading →

Don’t Forget The I Love You

October is by far my least favorite month of the entire year. It is a month that has been filled with tragedy and heartbreak for me. The 22nd of October is the day my daughter died. And this year marks 4 years since she took her last breath in my arms at 20 months and... Continue Reading →

I give you my word

Guest Blog Written By: Mark Caldwell (Olivia's Paternal Grandfather) A little over four years ago a friend of mine whom I worked with at a country club in Reno said these words to me.   Eric Dye was a former Marine who had seen duty overseas in Iraq and was home following his dream of becoming a... Continue Reading →

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