A little over a week ago the man I love got down on one knee and asked me to marry him over champagne and candlelight. Without hesitation I said yes. I knew he would be my forever from the moment we first met over coffee 9 months ago. After my divorce I was so unsure … Continue reading I Said Yes
The Rainbow
Before I even knew Olivia was going to die I had a deep desire for another baby. My pregnancy with the twins and their first months of life had been really tough. I longed for another opportunity to carry a baby, hoping with all I had for a better experience. When Livy died from brain … Continue reading The Rainbow
She Was
To say that child loss is life-changing is such an understatement. Losing a child doesn't just break your heart and change your life. It causes a truly cosmic shift in the makeup of your soul. I sat down to write a post today about the heartbreak that comes each time I have to refer to … Continue reading She Was
A New Kind Of Perfect
For so many years I lived a kind of double life. On the outside it looked like I had it all together. Yes, I had lost my only daughter to cancer. But I was "thriving." I ran a successful nonprofit that grew more each day. I had the perfect marriage. I simply wasn't going to … Continue reading A New Kind Of Perfect
A Punch In The Gut
Today started like any other. I woke up to the embrace of my sweet 3 year old who likes to start the morning by petting my hair. We woke up, I had coffee, fed my boys breakfast and hit the day with a running start. I was blissfully unaware that today was any different from … Continue reading A Punch In The Gut
Grief Through The Eyes Of My Child
When I found out I was pregnant with twins I spent hours daydreaming about the life they would share together. I imagined a special bond filled with a secret language, lots of giggles, and endless hours of play. I saw visions of my sweet twins being close even in adulthood as they shared a lifetime … Continue reading Grief Through The Eyes Of My Child
Glitter, Gold & Butterflies
I am sitting in my office today completely overcome with gratitude. Each minute more donations are pouring in for our 1st Annual Butterfly Ball. People who never met my precious girl are spending money on tickets to attend the Ball in honor of what would have been her 6th birthday on February 19th. And many … Continue reading Glitter, Gold & Butterflies
New Year & New Beginnings
Another new year has begun and I can't help but be struck by how different the beginning of this new year is compared to the last. On January 4, 2017 I made the most difficult decision of my life when I chose to officially end my nearly 8 year long marriage to my high school … Continue reading New Year & New Beginnings
A New Season
Lately I've been feeling stuck in a kind of twilight zone. I've been living with part of my heart in the past while the rest of me has moved on towards the future. I've been walking on eggshells trying desperately to avoid upsetting the balance between my old life and the new as I take … Continue reading A New Season
Piece By Piece
The day I lost my only daughter, Olivia, to brain cancer my heart shattered. Something deep inside of me broke. And ever since that awful moment on October 22, 2013 I have been living as an incomplete person. She was part of me and living without her now just doesn't feel right. For 4 years … Continue reading Piece By Piece
Beauty From The Ashes 