Butterflies & Beauty

Five years ago I visited the Butterfly Pavilion in Denver, Colorado with my (now) ex-husband, my Dad, brother, and our twins, Wyatt & Olivia. This family excursion took place during one of our trips to Denver so Olivia could continue treatment for her second bout with brain cancer. I didn't know it then but that... Continue Reading →

The Scars You Can’t See

When Olivia was first diagnosed with brain cancer in July 2012 I knew my life was going to change forever. But what I didn't know was the extent of what that would look like. Or the magnitude of the heartbreak that was coming my way. Not only was our little girl fighting for her life,... Continue Reading →

I Said Yes

A little over a week ago the man I love got down on one knee and asked me to marry him over champagne and candlelight. Without hesitation I said yes. I knew he would be my forever from the moment we first met over coffee 9 months ago. After my divorce I was so unsure... Continue Reading →

The Rainbow

Before I even knew Olivia was going to die I had a deep desire for another baby. My pregnancy with the twins and their first months of life had been really tough. I longed for another opportunity to carry a baby, hoping with all I had for a better experience. When Livy died from brain... Continue Reading →

She Was

To say that child loss is life-changing is such an understatement. Losing a child doesn't just break your heart and change your life. It causes a truly cosmic shift in the makeup of your soul. I sat down to write a post today about the heartbreak that comes each time I have to refer to... Continue Reading →

A New Kind Of Perfect

For so many years I lived a kind of double life. On the outside it looked like I had it all together. Yes, I had lost my only daughter to cancer. But I was "thriving." I ran a successful nonprofit that grew more each day. I had the perfect marriage. I simply wasn't going to... Continue Reading →

A Punch In The Gut

Today started like any other. I woke up to the embrace of my sweet 3 year old who likes to start the morning by petting my hair. We woke up, I had coffee, fed my boys breakfast and hit the day with a running start. I was blissfully unaware that today was any different from... Continue Reading →

Grief Through The Eyes Of My Child

When I found out I was pregnant with twins I spent hours daydreaming about the life they would share together. I imagined a special bond filled with a secret language, lots of giggles, and endless hours of play. I saw visions of my sweet twins being close even in adulthood as they shared a lifetime... Continue Reading →

Glitter, Gold & Butterflies

I am sitting in my office today completely overcome with gratitude. Each minute more donations are pouring in for our 1st Annual Butterfly Ball. People who never met my precious girl are spending money on tickets to attend the Ball in honor of what would have been her 6th birthday on February 19th. And many... Continue Reading →

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