Don’t Forget The I Love You

October is by far my least favorite month of the entire year. It is a month that has been filled with tragedy and heartbreak for me. The 22nd of October is the day my daughter died. And this year marks 4 years since she took her last breath in my arms at 20 months and... Continue Reading →

I give you my word

Guest Blog Written By: Mark Caldwell (Olivia's Paternal Grandfather) A little over four years ago a friend of mine whom I worked with at a country club in Reno said these words to me.   Eric Dye was a former Marine who had seen duty overseas in Iraq and was home following his dream of becoming a... Continue Reading →

Sunshine And Hurricanes

Have you ever tried to explain the unexplainable to someone? We all have things that have happened that change you. Things that suddenly redefine who you are at your very core. You can't explain what it has been like. Trying to put the experience into words that do any real justice is impossible. For me... Continue Reading →

To My Broken Hearted Boy

I write often about the struggles that come with being a grieving mother. The loss of my daughter can be all consuming. Especially this time of year as we rapidly approach the anniversary of Olivia's death. But what I don't talk about very often is the incredible toll the loss of Olivia has taken on... Continue Reading →

He Became An Ironman For Olivia

Yesterday was one of the best days of my entire life. I had the absolute honor of watching a man I had never met in person compete in the Coeur d'Alene Ironman Triathlon. And he did the whole thing to remember my daughter, Olivia, and raise money for pediatric cancer research. Eric Dye worked with... Continue Reading →

Hope

I was listening to the radio the other day and heard a quote that really spoke to my heart. " Hope is being able to see that there is light despite all the darkness"  Desmond Tutu Life is tough right now for so many around me. My loved ones are scared and facing colossal life... Continue Reading →

I Would Still Choose You

Being the mother of a sick child is an excruciating experience. There isn't much that could be more painful than watching your baby suffer and not be able to do a thing about it. I have never felt more exhausted than I did during those 16 months that Olivia battled cancer. Every day was a... Continue Reading →

Fear

Fear. It's something we all struggle with to some extent every day. The fear of the unknown. Fear of lingering tragedy. Fear of disappointment. Even fear of reality. My heart has been so heavy these past few days. So many of my nearest and dearest are struggling mightily with really big things. Some are struggling... Continue Reading →

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