Losing Olivia is the hardest thing I have ever had to live with. Not only did this beautiful little girl grow inside of me for 9 months, but I spent every day caring for her during the 20 months and 3 days she lived on this earth. I was with her nearly every waking moment, … Continue reading Grief – The Final Act Of Love
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It’s Okay To Not Be Okay
If there's anything I've learned over the course of the last several years, it's that sometimes I am anything but okay. And that in and of itself is okay. Us moms have the tendency to need to be superheroes. We are supposed to be able to handle it all like champions with a smile on … Continue reading It’s Okay To Not Be Okay
I Have 3 Kids
Have you ever been asked how many kids you have? If you have children, odds are you are asked this simple question nearly every day. When you have lost a child, that question becomes uncomfortable, and quite frankly, heartbreaking to answer. You see, God saw fit to make me a mother three times. First, thanks … Continue reading I Have 3 Kids
Beautiful Reminders
There are days that being a grieving parent is so hard that even the simplest tasks feel like too much. Something as easy as getting dressed and brushing teeth can be overwhelming. Those are the days you just want to hide from the weight of it all. It is easier to hide than to face … Continue reading Beautiful Reminders
3 Years Later
3 years. Today is 3 whole years since my only daughter died. I barely slept last night as I played the events of October 22, 2013 over and over in my mind. We knew it was coming and for that I am grateful. Olivia was home on hospice care after a 16-month battle with brain … Continue reading 3 Years Later
On This Day
Facebook can be a tricky business for grieving parents. It provides a pretty amazing tool to connect with others who have walked a similar path and an outlet to share my little girl's story. But on the other hand there are some mornings I wake up and see my "On This Day" reminder and I … Continue reading On This Day
Goodbye Sweet Girl
I know it's been quite awhile since I've sat down to write a blog post. We've had a lot going on as a family lately and I just haven't been able to find the words. This is a hard day for me every year. Today marks 3 years since Olivia went home on hospice care. It was … Continue reading Goodbye Sweet Girl
Our Hero – Olivia
September is Childhood Cancer Awareness Month. And while it might be tempting to simply scroll past the gold ribbons and the sad stories of these kids you see on your Facebook page, I ask you not to give into that temptation. Childhood Cancer Awareness matters deeply to me, and it should matter to you too. You … Continue reading Our Hero – Olivia
20 Months and 3 Days
Our family reached another milestone last week. Our littlest, Landon, turned 20 months old. In other words, he reached the age that would be our Olivia's last. Olivia lived for exactly 20 months and 3 days on this earth before she passed away on 10/22/13 from brain cancer. As of today, Landon is 20 months … Continue reading 20 Months and 3 Days
4 Years Ago
4 years ago on July 16, 2012 our family was shaken to its very core. Our 4 month old daughter, Olivia, was diagnosed with brain cancer. Our worst nightmare was coming true and there was nothing we could do to change it. I will never forget that day. I woke up that morning to Olivia having … Continue reading 4 Years Ago
Beauty From The Ashes 