Sometimes I catch myself thinking that all of this must be a truly horrible dream. A terrifying nightmare that I am bound to wake up from at any moment. But of course, it isn't a nightmare. I really did lose my only daughter a little more than 8 months ago after watching her suffer through brain … Continue reading A bad dream
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June 6, 2013 A Day Never Forgotten
One year ago today we were sitting in a small conference room with Olivia's neuro-oncologist to go over the results of her brain MRI. We were holding our breath... waiting... hoping that we would receive good news that she was still cancer free despite the return of seizures and sleepiness.But that day our prayers weren't … Continue reading June 6, 2013 A Day Never Forgotten
New Beginnings
We are incredibly excited to announce that Olivia and Wyatt are going to have a little brother or sister in early December! This is a time of immense joy for our family but also a time of sadness of what could have been if we had not lost our beautiful daughter to brain cancer 7 … Continue reading New Beginnings
Behind a Grieving Mother’s Smile
Today marks 7 long months since I watched my little girl take her last breath after a long battle with brain cancer. My heart is just as beaten and broken today as it was the day she passed away.During these 7 months I have learned to put on a brave face. I can smile, laugh, … Continue reading Behind a Grieving Mother’s Smile
A Grandmother’s Loss Times Two
When your granddaughter dies from cancer, a grandmother’s loss is twofold. There is the loss of your granddaughter, of course, but in addition there is also the loss of the person your daughter was before she buried her child.It is impossible to measure the loss of a granddaughter. Where do you begin? I could begin … Continue reading A Grandmother’s Loss Times Two
Mother’s Intuition
Mothers have an uncanny ability to sense trouble when it comes to their children. I often find myself jolt awake just a few minutes before Wyatt or Olivia would wake up like I could sense that they were going to need me momentarily.This amazing intuition was even more prominent when it came to Olivia's health. … Continue reading Mother’s Intuition
Flashbacks to a happier time
As springtime begins in Wyoming we are starting to venture out for walks again as a family. Only this year we are missing our daughter. She went home to Heaven on October 22, 2013 after a long battle with brain cancer. Taking family walks has always been a favorite past time for us. I can remember … Continue reading Flashbacks to a happier time
Sleepless Nights and A Sad Heart
Ever since Olivia passed away 5 months ago, her twin brother Wyatt, has been waking up in the middle of the night screaming in sheer terror. He will wake from a sound sleep and begin screaming as though someone is hurting him and he will yell for mommy. When his Dad and I walk into … Continue reading Sleepless Nights and A Sad Heart
Forever an empty spot
There is now forever an empty spot that used to be occupied by Olivia. Her space in our car is now empty. I can still picture her sitting there in her car seat. Smiling and stretching while she did her baby yoga. I can hear her babbling away from the backseat. She was so proud … Continue reading Forever an empty spot
I Fight, I Cure…And I will Never Stop
Before I had kids it had always been a deep, lingering fear of mine that I would have a child with cancer. The thought terrified me but I never actually thought it would happen to me. I knew a little bit about Leukemia but I had no clue that a baby could get brain cancer.When … Continue reading I Fight, I Cure…And I will Never Stop
Beauty From The Ashes 