Life has been filled with chaos for as long as I can remember. It all started shortly after we got married and made the move to Wyoming from Nevada. That move changed everything. We were newly married and left behind our family, friends, and everything we had ever known to move to a tiny little … Continue reading Waiting For Chaos
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Grief – The Final Act Of Love
Losing Olivia is the hardest thing I have ever had to live with. Not only did this beautiful little girl grow inside of me for 9 months, but I spent every day caring for her during the 20 months and 3 days she lived on this earth. I was with her nearly every waking moment, … Continue reading Grief – The Final Act Of Love
It’s Okay To Not Be Okay
If there's anything I've learned over the course of the last several years, it's that sometimes I am anything but okay. And that in and of itself is okay. Us moms have the tendency to need to be superheroes. We are supposed to be able to handle it all like champions with a smile on … Continue reading It’s Okay To Not Be Okay
The Empty Chair
The holidays are hard. Every year at this time my heart starts to fill with dread. Don't get me wrong. I have a ton to be thankful for. And I absolutely enjoy getting to see my table filled with loved ones. But every year I am also acutely aware that there's an empty chair at the … Continue reading The Empty Chair
I Have 3 Kids
Have you ever been asked how many kids you have? If you have children, odds are you are asked this simple question nearly every day. When you have lost a child, that question becomes uncomfortable, and quite frankly, heartbreaking to answer. You see, God saw fit to make me a mother three times. First, thanks … Continue reading I Have 3 Kids
Beautiful Reminders
There are days that being a grieving parent is so hard that even the simplest tasks feel like too much. Something as easy as getting dressed and brushing teeth can be overwhelming. Those are the days you just want to hide from the weight of it all. It is easier to hide than to face … Continue reading Beautiful Reminders
Because Of Her
When we started the Olivia Caldwell Foundation in November 2013, we were only a month out from her death. The sting of losing her was so fresh and we were searching for some way to give meaning to her loss. We knew we wanted to provide funding for pediatric cancer research to find the cure that … Continue reading Because Of Her
3 Years Later
3 years. Today is 3 whole years since my only daughter died. I barely slept last night as I played the events of October 22, 2013 over and over in my mind. We knew it was coming and for that I am grateful. Olivia was home on hospice care after a 16-month battle with brain … Continue reading 3 Years Later
On This Day
Facebook can be a tricky business for grieving parents. It provides a pretty amazing tool to connect with others who have walked a similar path and an outlet to share my little girl's story. But on the other hand there are some mornings I wake up and see my "On This Day" reminder and I … Continue reading On This Day
Goodbye Sweet Girl
I know it's been quite awhile since I've sat down to write a blog post. We've had a lot going on as a family lately and I just haven't been able to find the words. This is a hard day for me every year. Today marks 3 years since Olivia went home on hospice care. It was … Continue reading Goodbye Sweet Girl
Beauty From The Ashes 