Nearly two and a half years ago my worst fear came true. My daughter died in my arms after a long battle with cancer. The fear of losing a child was something that rattled me even before I first became pregnant. That fear became magnified after I lost our first baby to an ectopic pregnancy … Continue reading Fear
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I Can’t Think Of You
The day I found out I was having a boy and a girl (twins) was truly the best day of my life. I had always hoped to have a little girl. A precious little lady that I could love and cherish and help mold into a wonderful woman some day. Olivia was everything I had hoped … Continue reading I Can’t Think Of You
Was She Real?
Our Olivia has been in Heaven now for 2 years and 2 months. That's an entire 6 months longer than she was alive. I find myself questioning sometimes whether or not she was even real or just a figment of my imagination. Our life today is vastly different from the life we shared with our … Continue reading Was She Real?
Hope
This past weekend our pastor gave a beautiful sermon about hope in spite of the inevitable tragedies and heartache in this world. It really touched my heart and put into words what I've never been able to explain. We've been told that our family is an "inspiration." That we've thrived in spite of the tremendous … Continue reading Hope
Cuddles In The Snow
This week Casper was hit by another big snowstorm. The schools were closed and the city stopped while the snow fell heavy all around us. A little more than two years ago a similar snowstorm hit us early in October. We weren't living in Casper yet, but were just up for a visit with my … Continue reading Cuddles In The Snow
A New Neighbor
A few weeks ago I had the sudden urge to go and see my daughter. She is buried right here in Casper but I don't go as often as I would like. Her graveside gives me a place to visit, but I know that she doesn't dwell there. When I pulled up that Saturday afternoon … Continue reading A New Neighbor
A Little Black Shadow
This week brought on another big loss for our family... the death of our beloved dog, Daisy. Her loss has caused a much deeper sadness then I ever anticipated experiencing, despite the fact that she was of course a dear member of our family. Brett and I have had Daisy through everything. She was with … Continue reading A Little Black Shadow
He Remembered
This Thursday, October 22nd will mark 2 years since we kissed our daughter goodbye and watched her soul depart for heaven. These anniversaries are always incredibly difficult to get through. It's a reminder of what you lost and that yet another year has passed since you had the pleasure of your child's company. The greatest gift … Continue reading He Remembered
Worn
Some days I just feel broken. Worn out. Like everything in its entirety is so much that I am surprised I can even stand. My uncle passed away a few weeks ago. It was unexpected and it broke not only my heart, but the hearts of his wife, my dad and his mother - my … Continue reading Worn
It Will Never Happen To Me
Having a child die was a great fear of mine. For long before I had children I had a deep-rooted fear that I would have a child get cancer. I don't really know where that fear came from, so I can only assume it was God preparing me for the day that this would become … Continue reading It Will Never Happen To Me
Beauty From The Ashes 