For more years then I care to count I lived in an alternate reality. It was built around a need to display a false sense of perfection and happiness. I was so worried about protecting the feelings and emotions of everyone else around me and our public image that I refused to let myself feel... Continue Reading →
A Brand New Beginning
Just one month ago I said "I Do" for the second time. And with that I entered a brand new chapter of life with my little boys in tow. I am often struck by the magnitude of the changes I have gone through these past several years. I went from being a young wife and... Continue Reading →
The Scars You Can’t See
When Olivia was first diagnosed with brain cancer in July 2012 I knew my life was going to change forever. But what I didn't know was the extent of what that would look like. Or the magnitude of the heartbreak that was coming my way. Not only was our little girl fighting for her life,... Continue Reading →
She Was
To say that child loss is life-changing is such an understatement. Losing a child doesn't just break your heart and change your life. It causes a truly cosmic shift in the makeup of your soul. I sat down to write a post today about the heartbreak that comes each time I have to refer to... Continue Reading →
New Year & New Beginnings
Another new year has begun and I can't help but be struck by how different the beginning of this new year is compared to the last. On January 4, 2017 I made the most difficult decision of my life when I chose to officially end my nearly 8 year long marriage to my high school... Continue Reading →
A New Season
Lately I've been feeling stuck in a kind of twilight zone. I've been living with part of my heart in the past while the rest of me has moved on towards the future. I've been walking on eggshells trying desperately to avoid upsetting the balance between my old life and the new as I take... Continue Reading →
Beauty In The Mud
It's been 4 years baby girl. Four years since I got to hold you or feel your sweet little lips on my cheek. Four years since I heard your laugh or have been able to run my fingers through your beautiful brown hair. And I miss it all. I miss you. My anxiety has been... Continue Reading →
Lifting The Veil
For as many years as I can remember I was living a life with pretend "perfection." To those on the outside it probably seemed like I was thriving. In reality I was struggling more each day to keep it all together. Everything was falling apart. I was falling apart. Last September my world as I... Continue Reading →
