The first snow storm of the season blanketed Casper earlier this week. As I watched the snow fall, silently covering the city in white, my mind took me back in time to the first Casper snow four years ago. Ironically, just as I am this week, I was fighting my first cold of the season … Continue reading Last Snow
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Don’t Forget The I Love You
October is by far my least favorite month of the entire year. It is a month that has been filled with tragedy and heartbreak for me. The 22nd of October is the day my daughter died. And this year marks 4 years since she took her last breath in my arms at 20 months and … Continue reading Don’t Forget The I Love You
Sunshine And Hurricanes
Have you ever tried to explain the unexplainable to someone? We all have things that have happened that change you. Things that suddenly redefine who you are at your very core. You can't explain what it has been like. Trying to put the experience into words that do any real justice is impossible. For me … Continue reading Sunshine And Hurricanes
Hope
I was listening to the radio the other day and heard a quote that really spoke to my heart. " Hope is being able to see that there is light despite all the darkness" Desmond Tutu Life is tough right now for so many around me. My loved ones are scared and facing colossal life … Continue reading Hope
I Would Still Choose You
Being the mother of a sick child is an excruciating experience. There isn't much that could be more painful than watching your baby suffer and not be able to do a thing about it. I have never felt more exhausted than I did during those 16 months that Olivia battled cancer. Every day was a … Continue reading I Would Still Choose You
Fear
Fear. It's something we all struggle with to some extent every day. The fear of the unknown. Fear of lingering tragedy. Fear of disappointment. Even fear of reality. My heart has been so heavy these past few days. So many of my nearest and dearest are struggling mightily with really big things. Some are struggling … Continue reading Fear
This Is Childhood Cancer
We are just beginning the month of August, which means we are getting closer each day to September. September is a month that has come to mean a lot to me. It is no longer just about the start of school and the beginning of Fall. September is Childhood Cancer Awareness Month, which is … Continue reading This Is Childhood Cancer
My Long Term Relationship With Grief
I have been in a long term relationship with grief for as long as I can remember. You would think it began after my daughter passed away, but in reality it began long before that horrible moment in life. I began to grieve the moment my daughter, Olivia, was diagnosed with brain cancer at 4 … Continue reading My Long Term Relationship With Grief
Who I Am
I turned 30 in June and to celebrate this big birthday I went on my first ever girls trip with three of my closest friends. We spent three full days experiencing just a small portion of what Napa and San Francisco had to offer. That time was so wonderful. For the first time maybe ever … Continue reading Who I Am
Here’s To 30
I turned 30 on Sunday. This bigger birthday has caused me to take a step back and look at my life and how it looks drastically different then I expected it to. In some ways that's a beautiful thing. And in others it's very sad. When I turned 20 and imagined my life as a … Continue reading Here’s To 30
Beauty From The Ashes 